My week long break from school has come to an end. You know, last night I was thinking about how prepared I was for school after a week of intense relaxing. Yup, all ready to tackle the upcoming few weeks. Until I remembered something; I was completely not ready at all.
I was supposed to use this break to brush up on my math, my chemistry, my german, and my social studies. I fucking didn’t. Fuck. Fuck. I also had to read an entire book and write a report on it. Didn’t do that either. Fuck, shit. On top of that all, I’m starting my first day of school while having pulled an all-nighter the night before. Why an all-nighter? Because I got addicted to a new manga and spent all night reading it. Shit, fuck, balls.
After all that glorious display of self control, I’ll have to step up my game the upcoming week. I have to do that math, chemistry and social studies stuff, and I have to read that book and write the report before wednesday. This will all have to happen between my table tennis training and my music lessons. Woohoo!
Apart from reading a ton of manga the entire night, I’ve also trained myself into utilising pendulum magic. It’s still kinda hazy, but practise makes perfect, so we’ll see how it goes.
I am writing this at 2:23 in the morning. I am up this late because I have to write this essay that’s due to tomorr-err, today. I always procrastinate so hard and then end up starting to work at 11pm. Guess what, for thursday, I have to write two bookreports. TWO. BOOKREPORTS. And I’ve only read one of the two books! Sigh. Calvin’s class doesn’t even have a damn deadline for their bookreports. ‘sLong as you can present three bookreports by the end of the year, you’re golden (especially good for Calvin, as he is currently reading a book that’s almost thicker than it is tall). But no, we have dumb deadlines. Oh, and guess what. On top of those two bookreports, I have to write ANOTHER FUCKING ESSAY. All for the same damn class.
I’m not even going to do the essay. Just going to use the old “but ma’am, I had to write not only two bookreports, but also another essay all in the same week, so I didn’t have time”-excuse. Well, let’s pray that it works out, then.
So yeah, it’s Valentine’s Day.
My school has this thing where you can anonymously send roses to people. Expectedly, I didn’t get any. Again. It doesn’t really bother me though, girls are icky!
I have found myself talking to Calvin a lot, on facebook. Normally, I only use facebook to disapprove of things people share (which is probably a very big waste of time) and to send the occasional request for notes from my class mates. With Calvin, I’ve been talking about things that interest me, or about what I think of things, we even make dumb small talk sometimes. I hate small talk. But with him, just talking is fun. I’ve probably never talked to somebody as much as I talked to him. Possible exception: that facebook chat thingy with Dan, Tan, Terrence, and some other people I talked about in older posts. But that chat kinda died out so now I’m only talking to them at school. Since interacting with Calvin is one of my major hobbies now, I guess it’s safe to say that he is my best friend.
Before, when I was faced with the question ‘who’s your best friend,’ I always dodged it. Because I didn’t really feel like I could call anyone ‘my best friend’. Sure, there was a friend I liked better than my other friends, but ‘best friend’ implies some kind of deeper friendship, you know. Dan and Tan were both very strong contenders for the title of ‘best friend’ but I don’t think they’d see me as their best friend, and being best friends has to be mutual, right? So then the question is: Does Calvin regard me as his best friend? I’m not psychic, so I can’t be 100% sure, but he hangs out with me the most at school, and possibly after school as well. He also calls most of his old friends (whom he doesn’t really hang out with anymore after he had to re-do a grade) ‘assholes’ and other such nice things. So the answer is….probably? maybe? Let’s be positive here and say that the answer is ‘very likely.’
This kinda makes me sad because after High School (just a year and a half away!), Calvin will study abroad all the way over in Japan, where I will probably not spend a lot of my time for the next 20 years of my life. I guess I’ll have to find a new best friend over at Uni.
Some things happened yesterday, it was quite a good day.
At school, Tan told me that I evolved from teddybear-cute to handsomeguy-cute. Which was pretty nice. Though I don’t really know how serious she was. Maybe she’s just saying that, just like your parents always tell you how handsome you are.
After school, I had to go to this information night about courses of study. You could choose between presentations of a variety of courses. I chose two; Sociology and a new course called ‘Psychology & Technology’ (or, P&T.) Both presentations were held by students. The Sociology guy was a nice would-let-my-daughter-date-this-person person. But his presentation was pretty boring and he didn’t get to finish it in time. I decided that Sociology wasn’t for me because it treats people too much like a herd instead of the super complicated biological machines they are. P&T was a much more convincing presentation, with students that appeared to be very enthousiastic about the things they were talking about. There appeared to be a ton of job prospects, so I’ll be able to start working pretty soon after graduation. Best of all, it combines two of my favourite things: psychology and technology. This is definitely the course I’m going with once I graduate high school. But it is only availible at one university in the entire country (and surrounding ones), so I’ll need to graduate with some pretty grades. If I don’t get in, I’m screwed. Luckily, it didn’t seem like a very popular course of study so maybe they’ve got lowered entry standards.
It is really nice to finally have set a course for the future. It’s one less thing to worry about. It also provides me with an exta motivator for school, since I really want to get in the course.
And finally, in the evening, I bought a replacement for my dieing macbook. The laptop I bought is a lenovo u430 touch. It’s a great machine! It is super quiet, barely warms up, and it combines the power of a desktop computer with the portability and battery life of a tablet! Okay, maybe it’s a little less portable than a tablet, but it’s still only about 2 kilograms and ridiculously small for the power of the components inside. The only downside I can think of is the storage space on the hard drive. It has an SSD, so to lower the cost it has less storage space. But that can be remedied by an external hard drive. Normally, this laptop would’ve been way over my budget, but the electronics store I bought it from had a sale, my uncle works in the military (which means he is able to buy stuff tax-free), and my dad threw in a hundred quid, making it pretty affordable. There was one other laptop I was interested in, an Acer S7. It was the thinnest laptop I’ve ever seen, and since the only one left was the display model, I could get a discount on top of all the discounts I talked about earlier, making it amazingly cheap. But in the end, I chose power over portability.
I haven’t posted since the end of my test week, because not much was going on. But today, some guys decided to invite some other guys to go grab some coffee together. So we did. It was me, Terrence, Terrence’s friend, Elle, Elle’s friend and Amber.
On the way to the coffee shop, I ran into Bradley. We just did the basic how-are-you-doing, good?-cool-me-too routine and parted ways. I don’t think I’ve mentioned him before, which is odd, because he used to be my best friend before we went to high school and had less time to spend with each other. Now we’re just kinda movie buddies, going to movies with each other. But even that is slowly going away since I’m movie buddies with Calvin now too (Calvin and I are going to see the Hobbit tomorrow). Maybe I can invite Bradley along the next time Calvin and I go watch a film.
So I arrived at the coffee place and we were drinking the coffee mentioned, talking about the weird brews on the menu and we were having a good time and everything. Amber (Jill’s best friend as far as I can tell) is kind of the life of the party so to speak, so most of it was her rambling and the rest of us reacting to her. Elle’s friend, a emo type girl, was kind of out of her element or something, she doesn’t seem like a person used to going out with a group. I think most people at our school don’t think too highly of her. Terrence’s friend however, was able to keep up with us pretty well. He’s not in our school, so I don’t know how popular he is.
After we ran out of coffee, we went to the McDonalds. We talked about horror movies and stuff. I’m not really that into horror movies, I’m more squeamish than I’d like to admit.
After our McFlurries were taken care of, Amber suggested we went into the local video game store. We thought she was joking, but it turned out she was serious and we spent the next 30 minutes going through the shelves searching for games. Elle and Amber were searching the ps2 shelves, apparently Amber’s little bro still plays ps2 and is big into Harry Potter. So she bought all the Harry Potter games she could find, which was really cool and Christmassy of her. Elle wasn’t really into gaming, but she had a ps2 laying around somewhere so she decided to buy some cheap games for it. This is where she proved once again to be my kind of person. She bought a very obscure ps2 title, so obscure its name was literally ObsCure. And some other game, I forgot. Anyways, she picked something different, and that word kind of sums her up pretty well, I think.
Since everybody was buying themselves video games, I decided to pull out my wallet too, since you can never have enough sweet video games. I was planning on buying one video game (Metal Gear Rising: Revengeance), but decided to do a little experiment with my friends, because I like observing people and thinking about their actions. I grabbed Revengeance, and four other games (which I thought were worth owning as well, so that there were no disappointing outcomes of the experiment). I then did a poll with Elle, Amber, Terrence and his friend (Elle’s friend left after McDonalds). What game should I buy? All of them told me they had never heard of any of the games I chose, so I’m pretty sure they made a guess based on the box art.
First off: Terrence. Terrence was a typical CoD/FIFA kind of gamer. He chose the game Max Payne 3. Probably because the box art seemed the most familiar to him, featuring a gruff looking protagonist, a terrorist, and a lady in a dress. Same goes for his friend.
Third: Elle. Elle chose for Revengeance (again, my kind of person). Now the question is, did she choose it because the box art had a cool cyborg ninja guy on it? Or because she thought I liked games with cool cyborg ninja guys in them? Maybe she thought the ninja looked emo-ish, which she likes, I think. Perhaps she’s heard of the Metal Gear series before. Maybe she just picked a game arbitrarily.
Amber chose for the game Resonance of Fate. I first thought she did because it was the only game with a girl on the cover that wasn’t obviously there for eye-candy purposes only. But maybe she thought the name of the game sounded mysterious (I did). Maybe she found the art style cool looking (I did as well). Maybe she thought the guys on the box looked hot (no comment).
So that means I bought Max Payne 3, who won with 2 out of 4 votes. I am only slightly disappointed that Revengeance didn’t win, but hey, as I said, all five games were definitely worth owning. I think the choice the boys had made was the most obvious one. I believe it was the only western-made game so it felt the most familiar to them. The girls made more interesting choices. My final verdict on their choices: I think Elle chose Revengeance because of the emo-ish cyborg ninja, and I think Amber chose Resonance of Fate for a combination of the name and the art style.
EDIT: I forgot to mention; after I finished my coffee I stared at the leftover grounds on the bottom of the cup, looking for any signs. Didn’t see anything until I tilted my cup to the right a little. There I saw, very clearly, a little anchor. And anchors are symbols of, to name a few: hope, stability, straight edge, and safety. So I guess my future looks pretty swell. I briefly thought I remembered that anchors were a symbol of love as well, but that seems to not be the case. It could mean there is hope for love for me, which is something, I guess. I think the anchor at the moment symbolizes stability and safety for me. Me and my friends are getting closer, I’m not nervous around them anymore, I feel safe around them. My friendships are starting to get a little more stable.